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You are five, when your father comes home for good.
Small for your age, and quiet, you go unnoticed in the corner of the hospital room - you hear your father using far too many words you will later be very soundly told off for repeating, hear the doctors and nurses throwing longer words back and forth (you like the sound of them, even if you don't know what they mean. You think you might want to be a doctor one day, maybe). Eyes wide, you watch as they go about their business, wondering if that's what your father did out in Afghanistan (although you don't think Afghanistan is as clean and shiny as the hospital. Not from the pictures and the news on the TV.)
And, sometimes, when you've been so quiet even your parents have forgotten you're still there, you see your mother crying.
It's relief, she says, when you ask her about it. Just relief, and knowing he's going to be alright.
But, you say, he was always going to be alright. He said nothing was going to happen to him, didn't he?
She wipes her eyes, pulls you up onto her lap. Does this look like nothing? she asks, and, even as you shake your head, you don't think she's really talking to you any more.
Five years later, as you sit on the end of your father's bed and roll your eyes at the story he's telling you (because you really don't think his squadmates were that stupid, even if you do beat Uncle Tommy seven times out of ten at Trivial Pursuit), and try not to think too hard about why he's back here and how much of that might or might not actually be your fault, you think back to that conversation.
And you wonder, for the first time, why he ever bothered to lie.
Small for your age, and quiet, you go unnoticed in the corner of the hospital room - you hear your father using far too many words you will later be very soundly told off for repeating, hear the doctors and nurses throwing longer words back and forth (you like the sound of them, even if you don't know what they mean. You think you might want to be a doctor one day, maybe). Eyes wide, you watch as they go about their business, wondering if that's what your father did out in Afghanistan (although you don't think Afghanistan is as clean and shiny as the hospital. Not from the pictures and the news on the TV.)
And, sometimes, when you've been so quiet even your parents have forgotten you're still there, you see your mother crying.
It's relief, she says, when you ask her about it. Just relief, and knowing he's going to be alright.
But, you say, he was always going to be alright. He said nothing was going to happen to him, didn't he?
She wipes her eyes, pulls you up onto her lap. Does this look like nothing? she asks, and, even as you shake your head, you don't think she's really talking to you any more.
Five years later, as you sit on the end of your father's bed and roll your eyes at the story he's telling you (because you really don't think his squadmates were that stupid, even if you do beat Uncle Tommy seven times out of ten at Trivial Pursuit), and try not to think too hard about why he's back here and how much of that might or might not actually be your fault, you think back to that conversation.
And you wonder, for the first time, why he ever bothered to lie.
Literature
anfractuous.
and I have so many things yet to show you.
none of this is beautiful
when compared to hair whipping out a car window
in a night so deep and far-flung from city lights
that you can see by starlight for miles.
desert grass desert dust sighing in the wind
chasing at the tires and the sky–
oh my god the sky oh my god that sky,
she calls for only her wildest children tonight.
she calls for us to gallop against each other
against each other our shoulders brushing with canyons with coyotes
like brothers
like sisters
she calls for us
calls after us
as we pelt free and far-flung beneath her blue-black belly
pregnant with planets
Literature
twenty / something
growing up means :
bird metaphors are becoming trite / i must no longer write
about leaving the nest but decide where i can find a place to build.
like this we all pay our rents. i think about Franklin and his taxes
/ skull collector / his eventual place in the dirt / a nest of paper : currency
of misappropriated quotes.
i return home / find my poster of Che folded into tablecloth /
critical theory textbooks mothballed into the ivory of closet.
/ by home : i mean nest / or conjugal remembrance.
when i dream anymore, it’s about equity / fringe benefi
Literature
scattered
We leave pieces of ourselves in the corners
Of bookshelves, stuck between the pages
And in the hand painted wooden bowl
Collecting dust and spare change.
My fingers grazed a fragment
When I saw a photograph of you today
And my lungs caught on the memory
Of the first words you said to me
Lingering like a ghost breath
In the soft curve of my earlobe.
(“Hi, mind if I ask you
Some questions?”)
I hid inside the rain to drown out
The sound. The wet grass stuck to my toes
And the droplets rolled down
Over the shirt that my mom told me
Makes me look like I’ve got a chip on my shoulder.
(She thought her rebel was a princess
Bu
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Mutantsverse - second person POV for Pelita, for once. (Note on timings - the five-years-ago bit is the end of the Sandbox arc, between The Little Things and Home for Christmas)
Mutantsverse (being my take on a 'verse created by =IllustratedJai)
Sandbox
Conversations Overseas 1: [link]
Conversations in the Sandbox 1: [link]
Conversations Overseas 2: [link]
Conversations in the Sandbox 2: [link]
Conversations Overseas 3: [link]
Conversations in the Sandbox 3: [link]
Conversations in the Sandbox 4: [link]
Conversations Overseas 4: [link]
A Mouthful of Sand: [link]
A Mouthful of Sand: Coda: [link]
The Little Things: [link]
Moving On
Home for Christmas: [link]
Medal: [link]
Aftermath: [link]
Perceptions: [link]
Flesh and blood: [link]
Nightmares: [link]
Politics
Face-off (Pelita): [link]
Face-off (Mal): [link]
Safe: [link]
Formalities and Family: [link]
Lies to tell small children: you are here
Mutantsverse (being my take on a 'verse created by =IllustratedJai)
Sandbox
Conversations Overseas 1: [link]
Conversations in the Sandbox 1: [link]
Conversations Overseas 2: [link]
Conversations in the Sandbox 2: [link]
Conversations Overseas 3: [link]
Conversations in the Sandbox 3: [link]
Conversations in the Sandbox 4: [link]
Conversations Overseas 4: [link]
A Mouthful of Sand: [link]
A Mouthful of Sand: Coda: [link]
The Little Things: [link]
Moving On
Home for Christmas: [link]
Medal: [link]
Aftermath: [link]
Perceptions: [link]
Flesh and blood: [link]
Nightmares: [link]
Politics
Face-off (Pelita): [link]
Face-off (Mal): [link]
Safe: [link]
Formalities and Family: [link]
Lies to tell small children: you are here
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this is apparently a series, the rest of which I haven't read, but just reading this on its own, I like it.