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You're getting used to waking up in darkness.
You're not sure 'waking up' is entirely the right word, to be honest. Waking up would require you to have been asleep at some point, and you're pretty damn certain they've no intention of letting you do that in the middle of one of their 'discussions'.
But nevertheless, here you are, face-down on the floor of your cell with the roaring agony of a hundred new and exciting wounds and mutilations racing up your spine like the starting spark of a forest fire. It'll hit you soon enough, you know that much. Always does. But in the brief, ice-cold moment before the pain, one thought stands out.
I don't remember. I don't remember any of this. I don't remember this.
It's becoming a mantra, of sorts. An unlooked-for reminder. A mystery. And not one you're in all that much of a hurry to solve.
Not that you've much of a chance, for now. The brief, blissful moment passes as quickly as it arrived, pushed out by a raging inferno of pain that swallows you whole and conscious, each millimetre of ripped skin, splintered bone, crushed flesh sparking and combining into an explosion of white-hot agony.
You burn.
Somehow, you're not quite sure how, you manage not to scream. That, at least, you will not give them.
Everything else? You're not so sure.
You don't remember.
It should scare you, that. Whole hours of your life, just...missing. Whole days, maybe - down here in the dark you're hard-pressed to find any way of measuring time, and you gave up trying a long time ago. Whole swathes of time, just... gone. Lost. Stolen.
You don't remember what they did to you. You can guess, of course - hell, all you have to do is try to move to spark a reminder - but you don't remember.
More to the point, you don't remember what you said.
That, you're pretty fucking sure, should scare you rigid.
But, as the missing time becomes more and more obvious, and the pain that follows more and more severe, you're finding what should happen seems somehow less and less important.
Yes, you should be scared. Yes, you should be fighting. Yes, you should be pushing back against...whatever this is.
But it means you don't remember.
And right now, that seems a hell of a lot more important.
You're not sure 'waking up' is entirely the right word, to be honest. Waking up would require you to have been asleep at some point, and you're pretty damn certain they've no intention of letting you do that in the middle of one of their 'discussions'.
But nevertheless, here you are, face-down on the floor of your cell with the roaring agony of a hundred new and exciting wounds and mutilations racing up your spine like the starting spark of a forest fire. It'll hit you soon enough, you know that much. Always does. But in the brief, ice-cold moment before the pain, one thought stands out.
I don't remember. I don't remember any of this. I don't remember this.
It's becoming a mantra, of sorts. An unlooked-for reminder. A mystery. And not one you're in all that much of a hurry to solve.
Not that you've much of a chance, for now. The brief, blissful moment passes as quickly as it arrived, pushed out by a raging inferno of pain that swallows you whole and conscious, each millimetre of ripped skin, splintered bone, crushed flesh sparking and combining into an explosion of white-hot agony.
You burn.
Somehow, you're not quite sure how, you manage not to scream. That, at least, you will not give them.
Everything else? You're not so sure.
You don't remember.
It should scare you, that. Whole hours of your life, just...missing. Whole days, maybe - down here in the dark you're hard-pressed to find any way of measuring time, and you gave up trying a long time ago. Whole swathes of time, just... gone. Lost. Stolen.
You don't remember what they did to you. You can guess, of course - hell, all you have to do is try to move to spark a reminder - but you don't remember.
More to the point, you don't remember what you said.
That, you're pretty fucking sure, should scare you rigid.
But, as the missing time becomes more and more obvious, and the pain that follows more and more severe, you're finding what should happen seems somehow less and less important.
Yes, you should be scared. Yes, you should be fighting. Yes, you should be pushing back against...whatever this is.
But it means you don't remember.
And right now, that seems a hell of a lot more important.
Literature
anfractuous.
and I have so many things yet to show you.
none of this is beautiful
when compared to hair whipping out a car window
in a night so deep and far-flung from city lights
that you can see by starlight for miles.
desert grass desert dust sighing in the wind
chasing at the tires and the sky–
oh my god the sky oh my god that sky,
she calls for only her wildest children tonight.
she calls for us to gallop against each other
against each other our shoulders brushing with canyons with coyotes
like brothers
like sisters
she calls for us
calls after us
as we pelt free and far-flung beneath her blue-black belly
pregnant with planets
Literature
twenty / something
growing up means :
bird metaphors are becoming trite / i must no longer write
about leaving the nest but decide where i can find a place to build.
like this we all pay our rents. i think about Franklin and his taxes
/ skull collector / his eventual place in the dirt / a nest of paper : currency
of misappropriated quotes.
i return home / find my poster of Che folded into tablecloth /
critical theory textbooks mothballed into the ivory of closet.
/ by home : i mean nest / or conjugal remembrance.
when i dream anymore, it’s about equity / fringe benefi
Literature
A Million Pieces
"Am I allowed to love you?"
They asked me, as though love
somehow needed my consent.
Love was a wildfire, it was
thunder on the plains; it was
something that happened to you,
the only choice was
how you rode the lightning.
If you sailed the choppy waters,
crashed upon the rocks, and
splintered into a million pieces
all in the name of "love"
then you chose wrong.
There was no patience in love.
No one had ever done me
the courtesy of knocking first
and one look was all it took to see
there was no shelter here;
there was not even a roof.
Just a million pieces,
shattered in someone else's name.
"It's broken," I said, expecting again
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It's so real 0.0
Your description always seems to blow me away, to make it seem like the reader is right there living these experiences. Amazing!
Your description always seems to blow me away, to make it seem like the reader is right there living these experiences. Amazing!